Wednesday, October 14, 2009

To You

To the boy who would rather be reading Nietzche, creating movies, or eating steak than washing diapers, editing my blogs, or partaking of any food infused with kale, but does these things (usually) without complaining.


To You
Walt Whitman

Whoever you are, I fear you are walking the walks of dreams,
I fear these supposed realities are to melt from under your feet and hands,
Even now your features, joys, speech, house, trade, manners, troubles,
follies, costume, crimes, dissipate away from you,
Your true soul and body appear before me.
They stand forth out of affairs, out of commerce, shops, work, farms,
clothes, the house, buying, selling, eating, drinking, suffering, dying.

Whoever you are, now I place my hand upon you, that you be my poem,
I whisper with my lips close to your ear.
I have loved many women and men, but I love none better than you.

O I have been dilatory and dumb,
I should have made my way straight to you long ago,
I should have blabb'd nothing but you, I should have chanted nothing but you.

I will leave all and come and make the hymns of you,
None has understood you, but I understand you,
None has done justice to you, you have not done justice to yourself,
None but has found you imperfect, I only find no imperfection in you,
None but would subordinate you, I only am he who will never consent
to subordinate you,
I only am he who places over you no master, owner, better, God,
beyond what waits intrinsically in yourself.

Painters have painted their swarming groups and the centre-figure of all,
From the head of the centre-figure spreading a nimbus of gold-color'd light,
But I paint myriads of heads, but paint ho head without its nimbus of
gold color'd light,
From my hand from the brain of every man and woman it streams,
effulgently flowing forever.

O I could sing such grandeurs and glories about you!
You have not know what you are, you have slumber'd upon yourself
all your life,
Your eyelids have been the same as closed most of the time,
What you have done returns already in mockeries,
(Your thrift, knowledge, prayers, if they do not return in mockeries
what is their return?)

The mockeries are not you,
Underneath them and within them I see you lurk,
I pursue you where none else has pursued you,
Silence, the desk, the flippant expression, the night, the accustom'd
routine, if these conceal you from others or from yourself
they do not conceal you from me.

The shaved face, the unsteady eye, the impure complexion, if these
balk others, they do not balk me,
The pert apparel, the deform'd attitude, drunkenness, greed, premature
death, all these I part aside.

There is no endowment in man or woman that is not tallied in you,
There is no virtue, no beauty in man or woman, but as good is in you,
No pluck, no endurance in others, but as good is in you,
No pleasure waiting for others, but an equal pleasure waits for you.

As for me, I give nothing to any one except I give the like carefully to you,
I sing the songs of glory of none, not God, sooner that I sing the songs
of glory to you.

Whoever you are! claim your own at any hazard!
These shows of the East and West are tame compared to you,
and interminable as they,
These furies, elements, storms, motions of Nature, throes of apparent
dissolution, you are he or she who is master or mistress over them,
Master or mistress in your own right over Nature, elements, pain,
passion, dissolution.

The hopples fall from your ankles, you find an unfailing sufficiency,
Old or young, male of female, rude, low, rejected by the rest, whatever
you are promulges itself,
Through birth, life, death, burial, the means are provided, nothing is scanted,
Through angers, losses, ambition, ignorance, ennui, what you picks its way.

3 comments:

Jared said...

Remember that time we made Molly read that entire poem in front of hundreds of people? That was awesome.

You may "know me completely," but you're as beautifully mysterious to me now as you were the day we met. I love you.

Is "Rather Be Reading Nietsche" as scary as "Rather Be Bow Hunting"? Don't answer that.

Anonymous said...

I am literally teary right now - because of that post, that picture, and now also because of Jared's comment. And yes, I do recall having the privilege of reading that glorious poem at your wedding and how your guests' eyes began to glaze over a little midway though it. And now I will cross over into sentimentality by saying I love you both. I love who you are as a unit. I love your family.

Remember when Jen couldn't turn the microphone on?
How in the world could twelve years have passed by so quickly?

Beth said...

And of course their eyes must have glazed over. That poem, beautiful as it is, is interminably long. And I am pretty sure it was the first and probably the last time Walt Whitman was read at a wedding at that church. All my love to you, sweet friend. Wish you were here. My day is seeming a bit overwhelming and it is only 9:00.