Wednesday, November 30, 2011

What carries you


"I began to know my story then. Like everybody’s, it was going to be the story of living in the absence of the dead. What is the thread that holds it all together? Grief, I thought for a while. And grief is there sure enough, just about all the way through. From the time I was a girl I have never been far from it. But grief is not a force and has no power to hold. You only bear it. Love is what carries you, for it is always there, even in the dark, or most in the dark, but shining out at times like gold stitches in a piece of embroidery." Wendell Berry, Hannah Coulter


Thank you Molly for your beautiful post and the beautiful pictures of our little girls. And thank you again for introducing me to Hannah Coulter.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Another thought for the day


"There should be less talk;
a preaching point is not always
a meeting point. What do you 
do then? Take a broom and clean
someone's house. That says enough.
All of us are but His instruments
who do our little bit and pass by."
-Mother Teresa

Blessed Thanksgiving.

Insensibility

Insensibility
Wilfred Owen

Happy are men who yet before they are killed
Can let their veins run cold.
Whom no compassion fleers
Or makes their feet
Sore on the alleys cobbled with their brothers.
The front line withers.
But they are troops who fade, not flowers,
For poets' tearful fooling:
Men, gaps for filling:
Losses, who might have fought
Longer; but no one bothers.

                                   II
And some cease feeling
Even themselves or for themselves.
Dullness best solves
The tease and doubt of shelling,
And Chance's strange arithmetic
Comes simpler than the reckoning of their shilling.
They keep no check on armies' decimation.

                                   III
Happy are these who lose imagination:
They have enough to carry with ammunition.
Their spirit drags no pack.
Their old wounds, save with cold, can not more ache.
Having seen all things red,
Their eyes are rid
Of the hurt of the colour of blood for ever.
And terror's first constriction over,
Their hearts remain small-drawn.
Their senses in some scorching cautery of battle
Now long since ironed,
Can laugh among the dying, unconcerned.

                                   IV
Happy the soldier home, with not a notion
How somewhere, every dawn, some men attack,
And many sighs are drained.
Happy the lad whose mind was never trained:
His days are worth forgetting more than not.
He sings along the march
Which we march taciturn, because of dusk,
The long, forlorn, relentless trend
From larger day to huger night.

                                   V
We wise, who with a thought besmirch
Blood over all our soul,
How should we see our task
But through his blunt and lashless eyes?
Alive, he is not vital overmuch;
Dying, not mortal overmuch;
Nor sad, nor proud,
Nor curious at all.
He cannot tell
Old men's placidity from his.

                                   VI
But cursed are dullards whom no cannon stuns,
That they should be as stones.
Wretched are they, and mean
With paucity that never was simplicity.
By choice they made themselves immune
To pity and whatever mourns in man
Before the last sea and the hapless stars;
Whatever mourns when many leave these shores;
Whatever shares
The eternal reciprocity of tears.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Thought for this day


"I was asked why I did not give a 
rod with which to fish, in the hands
of the poor, rather than give the
fish itself as this makes them
remain poor. So I told them:
The people whom we pick up are
not able to stand with a rod.
So today I will give them fish and
when they are able to stand,
then I shall send them to you and
you can give them the rod.
That is your job.
Let me do my work today."

-Mother Teresa

Memory eternal to a friend, Bonnie Penner Witherall
martyred November 21, 2002

Sunday, November 20, 2011

It is Daddy that we love

There appears to be a change in the wind around our home on Scott Street: The Wonder Twins are truly growing up, which means a lot of things (like my right eye is beginning to twitch less), but for this post, it means hello to little Legos and good-bye to Duplos. And so I spent the majority of my Saturday rearranging and cleaning the basement to reflect this transformation. The Lego table, which Jared built for Thomas's second birthday and which has lived in the gated play/laundry room for the past several years, i.e. since the twins entered our lives, has officially moved to the main area of the basement so that all of our children can play with our ever increasing Legos. Finding a new home in the vacated area is our little kitchen stuff (of course I couldn't resist a table cloth). And there is one little girl who could not be any happier about this new arrangement. As you will see, Daddy was invited to join the ever hospitable and delightful Mary Poppins for a cup of fresh tea (and yes Leslie, this is Jared wearing the hat). And check out our cool new times table board that Jared and Thomas created today. No wonder it is Daddy that we love. Peace and goodness. A blessed Thanksgiving to you all.














Friday, November 18, 2011

Today I am thankful for...





Making the vegan nameday cake. Many years Russell!





Elliot making scrambled eggs.



Russell finding panty hose in the garbage. Who can resist?
And yes, it is Russell donning all those costumes above. Hmm.


Monday, November 14, 2011

I don't mean to bug you

As some of you may know, my friend, Ms. Cheryl, is the housemother at the St. Joseph Worker House, a home for women and children with no place to go. While the home is owned and managed by the sisters of St. Mary's monastery, Ms. Cheryl and her daughter Shakira live in and manage the house on a daily basis. On Saturday Ms. Cheryl approached me to see if our family or if anyone I knew might be interested in sponsoring the house for Christmas and thus providing the women and children with presents on Christmas day. While I have family and friends who have already pledged $100, this amount is only enough to provide a meager gift for those living at St. Joseph's. If you are interested in helping out in anyway with any amount (no amount is too small), please let me know asap. I do not want to commit to Ms. Cheryl unless I have a bare minimum of $300 pledged. Presently I believe there are ten women and children in the house (Ms. Cheryl shared with me that a new family of a mother and four children, which includes an 8 month year old had just moved in; they had been living in their car on Credit Island).  Please forgive me for this; I often feel like I ask too much but Jesus and the church fathers and mothers have much to say about our responsibility to those in need as exemplified in the Gospel reading of the Good Samaritan this Sunday. And please do not feel obligated to do this. I know times are difficult and there are many others to give to as well. Please let me know by email (thehost55@hotmail.com) if this is something you can do and how much you are willing and able to give. Peace and goodness to you. And as Russell reminded us this morning, "Christ is in our midst."

If you are interested in reading an older posts about St. Joseph's, you can find it here.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Almsdeeds and compassion filled your life with their splendors


Irish Rune of Hospitality
I saw a stranger yestreen;
I put food in the eating place,
Drink in the drinking place,
Music in the listening place
And in the name of the Triune
He blessed myself and my house,
My cattle and my dear ones, and the lark said in her song
Often, often, often,
Goes the Christ in the stranger's guise,
Often, often, often,
Goes the Christ in the stranger's guise.

"St. Martin of Tours was born in Pannonia (Hungary today), the son of a pagan soldier in the Roman army. Martin joined the army, and also became a catechumen. While in the army in France, one bitter cold night Martin shared his military cloak with a naked beggar, and that night Martin had a dream: he saw Christ wearing the halved cloak he had given to the beggar. Soon after, Martin was baptized and left the army, determined to be a 'soldier of Christ.'

He became a hermit, and founded a hermitage at Liguge in France. He was elected bishop of Tours because of his reputation for holiness-and because he was already famous for his miracles: he is said to have raised a dead man to life, to have cured a leper with a kiss, to have conversed frequently with angels and with saints. At his episcopal ordination, some complained that he was not a nobleman, and he had 'dirty clothes and unkempt hair.' (He was forever giving his nice things away to the poor.) Be that is it may, Martin's holiness was universally recognized, and when he died in 397, he became one of the first non-martyrs to be venerated as a saint."  from Evelyn Birges Vitz's, A Continual Feast: A cookbook to celebrate the joys of family and faith through the Christian year

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

In Blackwater Woods

It is a chill, blustery, gray November day here in Davenport, Iowa. Upstairs the children are munching on their before breakfast sack, an Aldi knock-off of Kashi's Go Lean Crunch cereal (because I am that ridiculous) and creating with Legos. Thomas has constructed the archangel Michael and Death and brought down the dragon he shaped out of beeswax yesterday; a big fight out is imminent. Today I am deeply grateful for these little ones, my precious children, with their tiny jammies, their sticking up in the back hair, their silly jokes, their curiosity, and the beauty of their imagination. Today I am content, thankful for the first sip of the coffee my husband made just for me like he does every morning while I am huddled up asleep in our bed (because he is that kind), for the oversized, blue, fluffy robe enveloping my body- the robe that was my father's briefly and now is mine-, for the potato soup and loaf of molasses bread that we will offer thanks for this evening and then consume. Today I am thankful anew to be alive, to be exactly where I have been placed, to be given a new day, a new chance to love. May God help me. Peace and goodness to you all on this Wednesday.

In Blackwater Woods
Mary Oliver

Look, the trees
are turning
their own bodies into pillars

of light,
are giving off the rich
fragrance of cinnamon
and fulfillment,

the long tapers
of cattails
are bursting and floating away over
the blue shoulders

of the ponds,
and every pond,
no matter what its
name is, is

nameless now.
Every year
everything
I have ever learned

in my lifetime
leads back to this: the fires
and the black river of loss
whose other side

is salvation,
whose meaning 
none of us will ever know.
To live in this world

you must be able 
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it

against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Halloween 2011

So nothing terribly original like last year's costumes of Dr. Omar and Johnny Cash (though Russell was initially planning on dressing up as Joan of Arc until he was wooed by the bright colors of the clown costume our neighbor Leah gave us). Although Thomas did don a Grandma Johnson original.


Boo at the Zoo






Halloween Eve trick or treat

Elliot as The Pirate


So I totally know why people are terrified by clowns. Russell's make-up artist, aka Jared, in retrospect decided that covering up the eyebrows was not a good idea. 

Lucia, of course, insisted upon being Mary Poppins but also wanted to wear the princess dress our neighbor gave to us. Leslie, this is the Mary Poppin's hat that Jared would wear for the reading of the book.
For the record (because there was some confusion), Thomas is Robin Hood, not Peter Pan.



Tuesday, November 1, 2011

A friend to man


With Jesus. For Jesus. To Jesus.
-Mother Teresa


The House by the Side of the Road
Sam Walter Foss

There are hermit souls that live withdrawn
In the peace of their self-content;
There are souls, like stars, that swell apart,
In a fellowless firmament;
There are pioneer souls that blaze their paths
Where highways never ran;
But let me live by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

Let me live in a house by the side of the road,
Where the race of men go by;
The men who are good and the men who are bad,
As good and as bad as I.
I would not sit in the scorner's seat,
Or hurl the cynic's ban;
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

I see from my house by the side of the road,
By the side of the highway of life,
The men who press with the ardor of hope,
The men who are faint with the strife.
But I turn not away from their smiles nor their tears
Both parts of an infinite plan;
Let me live in my house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

Let me live in my house by the side of the road
Where the race of men go by;
They are good, they are bad, they are weak,
They are strong,
Wise, foolish - so am I.
Then why should I sit in the scorner's seat
Or hurl the cynic's ban? -
Let me live in my house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.


For any locals, Michael at the Oaks of Mamre is in need of blankets to hand out. You can contact him or me if you have any available. Also, if interested, you can read more about the Catholic Worker movement here. And the Orthodox Peace Fellowship here. Peace and goodness.